Unlike a diary, a blog is meant to be read by others, so do I have to catch everyone up with
everything that ever contributed or led to my decision to go to culinary school or do I just jump in with the present moment? Or are there no rules and I just have to "stop analyzing so much" as my dear, wise, exasperated-with-me German mother was compelled to shout at me from time to time.
So I think this is how I'll proceed. Stay in the moment, unburdened by the responsibility to write my back story here (blah, blah, blah) but if the moment requires or inspires a flashback, then so be it. I say "stay in the moment" as if I'm freakin' Eckart Tolle and I have mastered this ability to hang in present time, unattached to the outcome of things, Piaf-like in my lack of regret, but the truth is I spent 99% of my life either looking back (why did I do that? why did they do that to me?) or looking forward (someday, when I win the lotto I'll....).
I'm 52 years old. (All comments about how much younger I look are welcome.)
Wife to Douglas, actor, chiropractor (willenwellness.com), loving husband whose endless belief in me and patience for my damaged-goods craziness leads me to conclude that he is a walk-in from another planet sent to study how humans react to unconditional love and support. I am his lucky case-study.
Mother to the handsome and hilarious Max Robbins, 20, currently enrolled in The Culinary Institute of America, Culinary Arts degree program, Hyde Park, NY. It was touring culinary schools with Max last summer that began this for me. Walking the halls of CIA and later, FCI, I couldn't stop my eyes from brimming over. The kitchens, the smells, the din of cooking, the hustle and concentration of the student chefs, the passion of the teachers made me feel like ET raising a glowing finger to the sky and hearing the distance call from a long-lost home.
Mother to the fierce, fiesty and fetchingly beautiful Lily Willen, 13. Honor student and incredible athlete. I am delighted with her humor, wit, insight and ability to live life so joyfully and our growing closeness as she matures... and scared out of my mind at what that maturity will bring over the next 4-5 years.
I'm enrolled in The French Culinary Institute's Culinary Arts Program beginning June 25, 2009. For nine months I'll be spending 5 hours each Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday evenings in FCI's SoHo facility training in classic French culinary technique and re-inventing myself in the process. Stay tuned.